IDK what to write ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Honestly started this blog solely to outpour my emotions. To say I'm a little lost will be understatement. There's a whole Tsunami raging inside me. I'm frustrated, disappointed, and irate with myself. I never got what I ever desired. Maybe I never tried hard enough. Maybe I'm too complacent to ever strive hard for anything. I just don't know how to handle my emotions. How to express them. I just feel like crying all day long. Nothing gives me pleasure. Always feel down and agitated. There are so much going on my mind that even I can't comprehend it. IDK I'm just fucking idot with no skill and anything.
I miss you Di and I miss you papa and I'm sorry for everything I did to you. I have been a bad sister and a bad daughter. Never been able to make you proud. I'm useless piece of shit who just wasted all the resources given to her. What the hell I'm doing with my life. I have done PhD in disappointing everyone related to me.
Really missing you both. Aa jao na please, please wapas aa jao.
