Sunday, April 9, 2023

Inferiority complex

Inferiority complex is as complex as it can be. Once you have it you start seeing world through its lens. You start feeling as if everyone is judging you. It stems from insecurities. I am a victim of it myself, and I have no clue if I'll ever be going to come out of it. I never been a social butterfly neither I ever given a damn about duniyadari. So I'm literally illiterate about society's norms. Now after getting married this somewhat resulted in inferiority complex as I was not as equipped with chat log kahenge toh ye karo woh Karo. People started judging me. My simplicity meant being "dehati" to them. Now the situation is soo bad that I don't even want to buy anything because I'll get judged by people. And even when I buy something I don't feel like showing to my in laws. Because I know whatever and however it will be. It will always fall short in their eyes. According to them I'll always be a dehati with no sense of style and taste. It hurts deeply. I feel worthless and judged all time. I think I'll never come out of it. It's seeping deep inside me now.

Loneliness

 Loneliness.......... Jab aap ke paas ek bhi vyakti na ho jisse aap apni baat samjha paye toh usse kya kahenge??? Jab sabke saath hone par b...